Do. Not. Judge. Me.

If anyone is to blame in this situation, it’s him. I swear he’s flirting with me. Always. I try to be my usual, antagonistic self, but… I think he likes it. That is not my fault!

Here’s the situation. I thought I had a potential Mr. Cee. While he isn’t exactly what I prefer physically, I do enjoy listening to his voice. And I like it when he smiles at me. I would occasionally chat with him, usually about nothing. Like I said, being my usual self. Not too many people can handle my usual self, and I always give extra props to those who can. I have been known to say that anyone who has been friends with me for 4+ years deserves a freaking medal. At first, I was not flirting with him at all. I’m being serious. However, I got the feeling that he might’ve had the idea that I was flirting with him. Accidentally. Eventually, I can now admit that it might’ve been on purpose. Well, I add him on the Facebook to show a few of my friends what he looks like. While cruising around some of his tagged photos, one stands out to me and pushes me to check relationship status. Lo and behold, it states that he’s IN A RELATIONSHIP! I figure, pfft, there goes that one.

Apparently not. He always mentions how he’s sad that I’m leaving him (I’m moving from Atlanta), how he knows he’s not close to my heart of gold because I’m not nice to him, how he’s gonna miss me when I’m gone, etc etc and so forth. Correct me if I’m wrong here, but this is not what you say when you’re in a 3-year relationship with someone else! Today, it was more of the same. We were out to lunch with a bunch of people that we both know and he was getting ready to leave. I called him lame for leaving before everyone else was ready to go and he stayed. After making the decision, he made sure to let me know that he stayed for me. He also made a point of telling me that I’ve broken his heart every day and how I’m a heartbreaker and I don’t even know it. When things like this happen, I think to myself…. “Self, are you absolutely certain he has a girlfriend? Facebook could lie! You haven’t heard it from the horse’s mouth! Maybe it’s not real.” And that right there? That’s the kind of thinking that gets you into trouble.

But on the other hand, he could just be playing around. I could be reading into the situation. My BFF has said exactly that. But, let’s be real… if I was his girflriend, I most certainly would NOT want him saying things like this to another chick.

Point. Blank. Period.